There are moments in life I get anxious about stuff. I stress and I think I drive Ivan nuts. No actually I know I do 🙂 Am I alone, do any of you ever get like this about stuff? For a while now, I have been struggling with where I am going with this photography adventure, as I like to call it. What do I really want to do with this and am I willing to take the risks I need to take the next step? One word: FEAR. HELLO. Oh fear, I hate how you creep in.
I love documenting life through pictures. I have been anxious about it, because sometimes I think maybe I am crazy. Maybe this is insane that I am trying to do this now in my life. I don’t know about you, but as a kid I was never very creative, I was not the artsy type. Although, I am happy with who I am and I would not be this girl TRYING to learn something new if I was any different, it was just not part of my life. Sometimes I think, maybe I should not continue to invest in this, because I have a career I am building and invest in everyday. I love what I do for a living. I’ve always wanted to work in television, I always wanted to work in sports…well I’m doing it and NOW, and NOW I want to learn photography! NOW I am in so in love with it that I want to continue to take pictures of families and couples! AND now I want to shoot a wedding someday. REALLY!! NOW!!
I do this to myself. What am I worried about? I am learning something else, something totally different from my career…THAT IS OK! This is when the AHA moments happen and I get all proud of myself…ummm I even do a victory dance when I have these moments. How lucky is Ivan to share these moments with me. HA!
Where I take this adventure with photography is totally up to me RIGHT?!?! I have this faith that is pulling at my heart and is telling me it’s all going to work out the way it is supposed to, but then I have this other little thing called FEAR pulling at me, telling me, what if you fail? What if this is the wrong path to take? I need to have more faith in God, He won’t lead me on the wrong path, I just have to see His signs and His guidance. The thing is I need to be patient. I need to stop and just enjoy the ride…YOU HEAR that LILY count your blessings.
I am blessed. I am thankful to have a job I truly enjoy and am lucky enough to have time to learn something new.
WHOA! I just really vented here didn’t I? What has this blog became?!?!? The other day someone made me realize just what this blog really is to me, what this adventure really is for me. I follow Jasmine Star because of her amazing work and the smart business woman she is, little did I know she would lead me to her sister Bianca, who is also amazing at what she does. Her blog, In the Name of Love is just as awesome and inspiring as Jasmine’s. She posted the other day in reference to her blog, “I had an epiphany and wanted to have a place where I could document the successes and failures of pursuing my dream.” After reading that it made me realize I am doing the same here. I am documenting the ups and downs in this adventure called MY LIFE! I am documenting life, the good, the bad, the risks and the fears. I am documenting the BIG moments in my life and the SPECIAL little ones.
Here I share a special little moment of my life…
LilyRo 